If you are willing to vote for a candidate who improves others lives at the expense of your own then I will be impressed.
I don't see myself as being any different than "others". We're a collective and we need to behave as a single people. If you see yourself as one kind of person and those who need help as "others" then you have a very long way to go before you can understand what America is about. At least that's how I think and feel.
I'm happy to pay more than my fair share because sometimes I've gotten more than my fair share, and sometimes I've gotten screwed out of my fair share. Balance is king here. When more people prosper MORE people will prosper. Trump supporters (like you're very clearly appearing to be here) and republicans in general seem to feel like they're part of a second America that doesn't include "others". Who do you lump into this other group? From my experience with people who talk like you do "others" usually means minorities and poor people, of which you seem deathly afraid. It really seems like the xenophobic aspect of Trump's message is what you latch onto most of all and then you try to mask it by forcing yourself to believe that he's a decent businessman and that would be good for the country.
Can you give me a straight answer on how you feel about minorities? Are you afraid of people who are different than you? I'm genuinely curious, and it's legitimately ok if you are afraid of them, or distrust them. If you've been living a relatively sheltered life then you have reason to be afraid of people who are different from you. But you also have to know that once you get to know a person, regardless of their skin color or nationality, you tend to learn that all people are very similar, and they're mostly on the good side.