Shizz Coming Out Thread
Posted 24 September 2011 - 12:43 PM
I've known I was gay pretty much all my life and the fact that I've been repressing it for so long has finally come to a head. I didn't want to hide it anymore, I've told a lot of people. Some were surprised, some weren't. Overall things are good and I'm happy to be out with it.
What does this mean, then? I hope it doesn't mean anything. I don't want things to get awkward at gatherings or MAGfest or anything else that happens. I want things to go on as normal. And I certainly don't want anyone to feel like they can't make dick jokes or anything else around me, no sir, because those are hilarious!
Without calling anyone out, I know I'm not the only one on here who is a little left of... well, straight. So, why make a thread about it, then? Because I feel that one of the greatest things about this place is that the vast amount of experiences people have. We can all learn things that we never would have been able to learn from each other otherwise, and that's easily what I love about this place the most. If you want to share your experiences, please do.
So there it is. I think you guys are the greatest. I'm getting it out in the open because I want things to be square and honest with ya'll, not because I'm fearful of oppression or repercussion- believe me, I am LEAST concerned about the reaction from the people here than anyone else I have yet to tell so far.
Anyways, TL;DR version if you didn't read:
Posted 24 September 2011 - 12:47 PM
Mom took it well, by the way. I told her I'd known all my life, but was scared to say anything and had kept it in since Junior High. I'd wanted to say something for so long but couldn't I started crying in the restaurant pretty much immediately. She smiled and told me that she was happy for me, happy that I felt comfortable enough with her- and myself- to admit it, and that she wished me the best in creating my reality from here on out. I can only hope this will go as well with the rest of my family. I think it will, and I feel very fortunate to have such a supportive family.
I told my roomates a little while ago. They were surprised but didn't mind at all- they had known me since high school, after all. But they told me they don't really care, that they don't feel awkward living with me at all and are supportive of me and this big step I have taken.
It almost makes me sick to think how many relationships I could have had by now but have not because of fear of expressing myself sexually. Part of the reason I left Japan was because, while there certainly is a sizeable gay population, the overall vibe is that outside of novelty it is frowned upon in general as a lifestyle choice and it became clear that I could have no long term future there without living a lie. It was extremely difficult to grin and bear it when told "Oh hey, if you REALLY want a long term investment here, how about getting a Japanese girlfriend?" by pretty much every foreigner and native Japanese alike. I've had no real experience with relationships up until now because I've had to use excuses like "she's not my type" or "I'm too busy to have a girlfriend right now" to blow off women I knew were interested in me and I never actively pursued any romantic interest with another male because... well, self-explanatory. Again, I'm not doing this for attention or because I expect any strong reaction one way or the other- I'm just tired of not being honest, with myself and other people, out of fear: I am getting older, I have lived most of my life closeted, I am frustrated and lonely, and I have no venue or place to express feelings legitimately outside of the internet right now. Apologies if this is incoherent- I'm still reeling. My mind is full of colors and noise and this is really quite unreal at this stage. I am probably being overly dramatic, but my sentiments are genuine.
I know this is awkward. I'm sorry if this is causing a scene. If you have any questions, fire away. I'm here.
Posted 24 September 2011 - 12:52 PM
– Richard Buckminster Fuller
Posted 24 September 2011 - 12:55 PM
Nah, just kidding. I will tell you I had no idea, but I also DON'T CARE- as in, it changes nothing. I have plenty of gay friends, I live in San Francisco.. and your orientation has nothing to do with the good times had.
Though, it DOES put that viking guitar rape whistle scene into a different light.............
Good for you man. See you at mag
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Posted 24 September 2011 - 12:55 PM
I know it's not courageous to come out as a straight man but hey, I am who I am.
Posted 24 September 2011 - 12:59 PM
MINIBOSSIES NEVAR SAY DIE!
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Posted 24 September 2011 - 01:06 PM
I updated my second post with a bit more info. I'm going to talk with my little brother today. He is the coolest kid ever and I am not worried about him in the least.
I have two other younger brothers whom I will be calling today. I don't have any sort of fear of repercussion from them but it's their birthday so it may be just a little awkward, heh. "Happy birthday! By the way, I'm a fag, have a nice day!"
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