Posted 17 November 2009 - 04:31 PM
I'm thinkin' "how stoned was the person who actually wrote all this?" I'm also thinking, "why would anyone send this to me?"
So i thought i'd share with you all. Enjoy.
Perhaps you welcome goodness, if yes maybe you might think making a verbal statement for instance "I as in myself welcome goodness" and maybe you might think having another perceive you welcome goodness and having this other verbally state "I as in myself perceive (name) welcomes goodness" would be good to do. Maybe then you'll verbally state "and what (name) has just spoken is true, for I as in myself welcome goodness" would be good and strengthening to do. Maybe you might think making a verbal statement in the present with regards to the past and speak "If the future is already known, I'm verbally stating in the present of time with regards to the past from before I as in myself existed to the present time that I as in myself have welcomed goodness and currently welcome goodness." would be good to do. Maybe at times you need to "disconnect" (figuratively typing) your "heart" (figuratively typing) if you have a "heart" (figuratively typing) and use your "mind" (figuratively typing) if you have a "mind" (figuratively typing). Maybe trying to perceive an opposite of something can be beneficial. If you are "brainless" (figuratively typing) maybe I wonder how you will ever know you are "brainless" (figuratively typing). Maybe having a mind (figuratively typing) can give freedom. I believe absolute goodness righteousness through-out all time including anytime should always be the dominant reigning power throughout this entire existence and maybe there is agreement. I believe I always believed and believe unrighteousness, evilness, and badness should be unexistent, have always unexisted, and always unexist and maybe there is agreement. I believe there should never be, have been, and ever be any badness, evilness, and wrongness especially unconsciously and maybe there is agreement. Maybe verbally stating "I as in myself believe absolute goodness righteousness should always be (b as in the initial letter of the word "bag"-e) the dominant reigning (maybe spelling this word after speaking would be good to do for clarity sake for example r-e-i like of the initial alphabetical letter of the word "it"-g-n-i like of the initial alphabetical letter of the word "it"-n-g) power through-out all time including any time throughout this entire existence and goodness should always prosper." would be good to do. I believe what is good for me and what is good to me should be known though I believe I am entirely a private individual. Maybe you might think sharing goodness is good to do and maybe someone will care. For there to be a true love or true loves made specifically for me and for the true love or true loves and myself to not be about each other or each others presence in the same dimension of existing and for that true love or true loves of mine to also not be in a human appearance and have a size that is similar to mine is strongly making that true love or true loves seem to myself to be divine trash maybe there is similar belief. For myself existing I believe a true love or true loves has been and is a divine essential for me maybe there is likewise belief. Maybe there will be verbal statements like "From before I as in myself ever existed to (t as in the intial alphabetical letter of the word "tree"-0) always and forever into the future there should absolutely be (b as in the initial alphabetical letter of the word "bag"-e) no (n-o) possibility and / or possibilities for (f-o-r) myself to (t as in the initial alphabetical letter of the word "tree"-o) do (d-0) evil, badness, or wrongness including all combinations of evilness, badness, and wrongness." soon. I think the content of the holy bible can possibly inundate and / or enrapture an individual or individuals into a "realm" (figuratively typing), where the individual or individuals becomes handicapped from reality and where their ability to live gets robbed. I declare independence of the holy bible. I think the holy bible should be condemned and abandoned. I think the holy bible can be a dangerous and sickening book. I believe I have turned at least 1 of my hairs black. If a god made everything then I think in a way everything is god's fault maybe though to a certain extent. I currently believe there is no god because all my life I have never truly met and / or known a god and felt impressed to believe there is a god more than once and have in a faithful aspect believed whole "heartedly" (figuratively typing) that there's a god but I believe I deserve better and always have deserved better and I am alive and am alive in the present of time and to myself there truly is no god about my presence and believe blatant evil is prevalent with myself currently and I have come to the conclusion there is no god and if then there is a god then that god should make god presence blatantly known to me because that is what is righteousness to myself and offer understanding and believe I was forced low standards upon myself because when I was less than 6 extro worldly years old from the time I was supposed born in the worldly aspect I had a spiritual encounter when I was barely alive that impressed upon me and was something like a subdueing marination of peace that seemed to have touched my "heart" (figuratively typing) and spoke over me "I am god" and in a way I felt the touching of my "heart" (figuratively typing) was done in such a fashion to have myself stay mute with regard to the spiritual encounter and I believe that spiritual encounter was spiritually manipulative, molestful, and trespassful and entirely wrong and without hearing the words I believe my "heart" (figuratively typing) was whispered "I'll be taken cared of" without having like directly communicating "I'll be taken cared of" and I wasn't taken cared of and still don't believe I'm taken cared of and probably believed from the time I initially consciously existed that I had no "heart" (figuratively typing) to live and probably truly preferred and had a sense of desire to be dead instead of living and I believe that had and have an innateness of deserving to not have to do anything and that I deserve the best of the best in the aspect of goodness for myself always but I believe like my "heart" (figuratively typing) has been forever hurt to the core of my "heart" (figuratively typing) and I believe there was probably a time where I went unconscious when I was less than 13 extro worldly years old and probably had my "mind" (figuratively typing) left in a muddled, "dead" (figuratively typing), unconcentrated mental state and I was consciously unaware of myself being in a muddled, unconcentrated,. I think strongly that I've noticed sI feel like the living dead like life that wasn't ever supposed to live. I think I believe there is an infinite amount of possibilities. I believe there is a possibility there is no god. I wonder though is there an overall handicapped limit in a way with everything or am I handicapped because I can't think of a new color. I believe to count to the greatest number is impossible because I believe there is no greatest number and believe numbers are endless and I believe between the numbers 1 and 2 there is an infinite amount of numbers. I believe if there is a god that god does not do what is truly righteous and probably think true righteousness surpasses any intergrity and believe if there is god that god should always do what is truly righteous. I think to live in true righteousness I should be able to live forever and be able to die at any time. I think true righteousness is good and I think true righteousness gives and prospers "living" (figuratively typing). I probably think all deserve great respect and all deserve to be themselves. Maybe someone has heard "the choice you choose will maybe make you very poor or very rich." I believe goodness is of a higher quality than badness , evilness, and wrongness including all combinations of badness, evilness, and wrongness. I believe that I shouldn't have to have any type of mentality with regards to evilness, badness, or wrongness, including all combinations of evilness, badness, and wrongness including the "in the middle way" (seemingly like total neutral and innocent but really is of badness, evilness, or wrongness including all combinations of evilness, badness, and wrongness) because I believe I am a being of a quality of entire goodness and believe this is true, has always been true, and always will be true and therefore I as in myself should never have, have, and ever should have to exist with any badness, evilness, or wrongness including all combination of evilness, badness, and wrongness including the "in the middle way". I probably do not think bringing new life into this creation is good. I probably think for a being or beings to consciously decide to try to bring a being or beings into this creation and have no true understanding of this creation and have not even experienced passing (like the action of dying) but expecting to eventually pass (die) with at least a being already in this creation not being taken cared of to a satisfactory calibur is just I think possibly soo arrogant, soo selfish, soo careless, and soo stupid. I am not taken cared of to a satisfactory calibur at all. I believe my body is sacred though I am soo displeased with my body. I believe from the time I existed I have been owed more than anything ever possible to be given unto me and anything ever impossible and maybe there is likewise belief. Maybe these words will be spoken in an aspect of a verbal statement "I as in myself believe from the time I as in myself existed that I as in myself has been owed more than anything ever possible and anything ever impossible". I believe from the time I existed I have been entirely innocent and righteous and believe I should always be entirely innocent and righteous. Maybe staring at something round and bright that generates warmth at a certain time and a certain place could result with a reaping of incredibleness and extraordinariness that could result with everlasting enrichingness. Maybe someone has seen a face on something. I think vulnerable beings deserve great respect. I think a being who undeveloped is unfair to be apart of exploitive situations. I think a vulnerable being or vulnerable beings in atmospheres of exposing could result with a vulnerable being or vulnerable beings feeling robbed, hurt, scarred, jealous, angry, raped, used, exploited, and sick [mental issues (enlarged ego, insecure)]. I believe the past is permanent and I believe the past is forever. I believe the present of time is new. I think using a being or beings that are less than 18 extro worldly years old from supposed birth could "send" (figuratively typing) a message that using a being or beings less than 18 extro worldly years old from supposed birth is fine and therefore I think that's bad because I think there is a good probability of vulnerableness. I think if a mature being consents for quite younger material of themself less than 18 extro worldly years old from supposed birth to be used in atmospheres of exposure sharing that information is good to do. I do not deserve to be bossed nor do I think bossing is nicest way to be. I believe I am righteous to talk about anything including anyone because I exist especially in the aspect of righteousness. I believe I am owed justice. I think I believe to keep a being or beings alive when the being or beings is "craving" (figuratively typing) to be dead is evil. I have tried killing myself time after time with results of failure and am still alive against my will and probably believe I have always been alive against my will. I rather be dead than be in this existence. I believe for myself to ever have lived has been extremely wrong. I extremely believe there should never have been, be, and ever be anything of myself for instance an offspring, offsprings, likeness, likeness, parallel, parallels, clone, and clones including all combinations of offspring, offsprings, likeness, likenesses, clone, clones, parallel, and parallels. I believe I should have never lived and I believe if I ever am dead (my definition of dead is different from passing) I should not live again. I think having utmost filtering with what is believed is wise and good. For myself to have existed, I believe I am entitled to be alive and "live" (figuratively typing) fully and freely forever and always never any evil, badness, or wrong including all combinations of badness, evil, and wrong to ever be existent with myself from before I ever existed to always and forever into the future and perhaps there is likewise belief. Maybe producing a verbal statement or verbal statements can be empowering and good. I think I have wondered why I lived probably too much. Maybe wondering too much can lead to lostness. I don't think lostness is good in this creation. I deserve to know why I lived and to be deprived of the answer of why I lived and be alive to myself is too unrighteous. I think there was a time where I think had the perception if I was gay I was going to hell and I think I went through inner turmoil like thinking how could god make me and then I am to be going to hell because this is how I am and I did not ask to live or be who I am but this is how I am and so I think I had a private intimate time with myself with regards to feelings I had and I think I felt strongly unable to share myself and I think within 6 extro worldly years from this time, I listened to some music and believe I discovered a private intimate time of myself exploited in an aspect of discretion that was like my "heart" (figuratively typing). I believe my "heart" (figuratively typing) is exploited in music referred to as pagan poetry. I think I have been exploited more than just music referred to as pagan poetry. I deserve understanding about this exploitness of myself under discretion but yet I am still deprived of the understanding that I probably discovered now for over 4 extro worldly measurement of years. In my mind I think some spiritual energy has entered my mind without my permission nor did this spiritual energy give any understanding of what this spiritual energy is for now I think this has been true for over 3 extro worldly measurement of years. I was thinking about flying about in the appearance of a bird. I think my perception with a cup with water in the cup to about the middle level of the cup to be a cup with water in the cup to about the middle level of the cup. I believe what I prefer is what I prefer and I do not have to share what I prefer nor do I have to "label" (figuratively typing) myself. I think the english language is too filthy especially in the verbal aspect. I think hearing the same old sounds can cause "deadeningness" (figuratively typing). These words I think sound exactly alike "fail" and "feel" and I think if "fail" was "charn" then I think the english language would be more refreshing and enlightened. Maybe resting in somewhat strong natural light when possible could be beneficial. I believe that myself being a human being in the worldly classification has used logic in the past. Maybe chewing food thoroughly (quite highly refined) can help to have high energy. I think my skin has different colors. I believe I should have never been touched from the time I existed unless I consciously permissed and with having a "mind" (figuratively typing). I do not like to be questioned for I think a question or questions can be too molestful and rapelike. I do not think there should be any pride in this creation. My definition of open-minded is a mind that is like entirely at a humble state and is without judgement upon newness and differentness. Maybe there is person A and person B and person B claims to be open-minded but person A communicates to person B that I think you, person B are not open-minded and then if person B after receiving communication from person A thinks "maybe person A is correct." then I believe person B would truly be open-minded. I think to receive communication of "no smoking", "no preservatives", and "no trespassing" to be of foul beligerence in the aspect that these shapes that are classified to be letters have formed words in the worldly aspect and have meaning because "no smoking", "no preservatives", and "no trespassing" are not even sentences and then I believe "no smoking", "no preservatives", and "no trespassing" are able to be perceived in more than one way. I think I do not appreciate receiving any communication of any type of "thank you" and "sorry". Maybe there's an ability to think nothing of something to thinking an eternity of something. I wonder what is really of any true worth and I think for myself to live there should be living love for myself otherwise I think "why be alive?" and being alive with no living love for myself causes myself to have a concern because I am alive without a living love and believe that since I am alive I deserve a living love and truly I am alive without any living love and believe I have been left like this for a way too long of a time. If I was on an estranged land and could not tell what the shape is of what I am on if what I am on had a shape and could view two sphere objects floating about then I do not think I would make a conclusion that I am on a cube. I believe I am owed justice for any experience that I experience from before I ever existed to always and forever into the future as far as I am concerned at this time. I believe charm is charm and beauty is beauty. I think charm can intrigue and beauty can "enrapture" (figuratively typing). There is not anything that is welcomed to wipe a tear(s) from my eye(s). I am not sure if I have typed, spoke, written, and phrased all my speaking, typing, writing, and phrasing absolutely correctly and the best to speak, write, type, and phrase.
I actually made it through all of it and i still don't know what it means. Maybe my mind is totally blown and i don't know it. Maybe I need to be stoned too!
I still don't have a signature.
